I've been reading this book today all day) and I've just been crying all day.
I think it's so many things... the deep lonliness, the feeling that if anyone was to ever understand you they're long gone and the long periods of time with just no one. The feeling of being to big for anyone to hold. The period where she passes as a man for a while and is accepted and yet is even more isolated and alienated. And then even when she's dounf love, choices she knows she has to make cause her to lose something she thinks she'll nveer get back (which is probably the truth). But then, the love and acceptance that comes. even though it takes years and years of complete solitude she right now is finding people who are big enough to hold her. It proabbly wont last but it's something worth celebrating.
Lord whatever You're doing in this season
Don't do it without me
Don't do it without me
It may be time to start HRT soon
July 6, 2020.